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Band Practice!

Exco just had their meeting on Wednesday. Everyone is supposed to feel more motivated and responsible for their playing and their music for Capriccio. If band still starts late tmr…

39th Council

To say that I don’t regret not trying for council would be a lie. But yes, I feel that I made the right decision by not running and joining band instead :) I can’t imagine how life in JC would be like without hanging out in JBR, without playing for flag raising, without having music in my life, spending it on work sessions, or having SODACHE every work session instead of band practice. Music has played such a huge role in my life and I don’t see that role becoming smaller in time to come. And to top it all off, my section is really really awesome <3 Honestly, in the beginning, I always envied other sections and how they were always so bonded. Always wanted to know what it felt like to be in one of those sections where everyones just so comfortable with each other and everyone has the same priorities, band. Where everyone not only loves to make music, but also love doing everything else as well, studying together, playing together, being retarded together :) Definitely setting more time aside for my awesome section <3

-rambling portion-

Then comes the issue of what I expect from council. I am setting the bar quite high for them cos I know the people inside and I know what they’re capable of. One huge deterrent for me from joining council is the vibe I get from them. Yes, they’re passionate for the school, yes, they want to serve the school community, yes, they’re extremely enthusiastic about school bonding and preserving school culture. But, whats the use if it is all centred around the council? It gives me the feel that council is some sort of legalized clique, with the bondedness stemming from something seen ‘legit’, school spirit. So whats the use of school culture if it is only preserved through having SODACHE every work session. Isn’t this kind of selfish? But then.. songs and dances should only be saved for special events and the school does feel the sense of bondedness when singing all those songs, I do at least. So I see the sense in that. But what about the dances? I feel that while it is an important part of the school culture and history, does that mean it has to be preserved? I for one think that the college dances have become redundant, more of a white elephant. Then again… If what the seniors say is true, then it would be mean for us to scrap it if previous generations of Hwachongians come back and look forward to doing the college dances. But then, what if that in itself is untrue? And is just a sentiment felt by the councillors? But come on, who are u trying to convince, you guys can’t even do the dances yourself, and you expect the school population to follow suit? By promoting school culture and spirit by being the very embodiment of school culture, not only figuratively but in the physical sense (that you anchor school bondedness), your passion is the benchmark for the school’s enthusiasm. And if you guys can’t even do it properly, I really wonder about the role of college dances in Hwachong. Has the role evolved and become redundant? Is it filling up unnecessary space that can be better maximised? I mean, if it is such an integral part of school culture to the SENIORS then they should carry it on for themselves. For us, we can have our OWN Hwachong culture that we feel an attachment to. I feel that culture is something that comes from the people, something that grows naturally. Not something forced upon just because of an age-old tradition. Culture is ever-changing, if it is not useful or does not truly represent the current batch of people, I don’t think its valid enough to be part of our culture anymore. Heritage, yes, culture, no.  And if I DID join council, that would be the thing I would’ve pushed for to change.

So yes, my wish for 39th council? Make the student population FEEL the school culture.

And I know this is something I don’t know how to solve or cannot effectively solve, which is kinda a reason why I didn’t join. There were alot of pull factors from band and fac comm too. Hopefully fac comm will let me achieve this aim I set for the council, just a little bit. :D

No Regrets

Today really affirmed the fact that I made the right choice to join band and not run for council.

My best high school memory? Band. Definitely.

And I love my jc saxtion. You guys are awesome <3

Life-Changing!

Its only been 2 1/2 months into JC and so much has changed!!!!! For the better of course :) Some friendships changed, made new friends, but everything is going SWIMMINGLY~

The March hols has really set in stone what my priorities will be like for the rest of the year ^^ definitely the 4 most important things will be band, He(ART) [I’m super excited about this], church and studies!! Had an awesome class outing, an awesome band outing, and an awesome first meeting with VSA :) Can’t believe how awesome everything is going!!! Looking forward to sax quartet, He(ART) events, serving in Kids ministry and hanging out more with class ^^ 

Now time to study for math =O 

You want to know why you have lost so many best friends in the past? You don’t know how to be one. And i won’t be the only one you’ll lose, you’ll just lose more in the future and the sad thing is you’ll keep blaming others when you don’t notice that the common factor in all these failed friendships is YOU. I have so many more other people who are much better friends than you. I’m not going to waste any more time trying to salvage something you don’t bother trying to save. Even my band friends, people i see only twice a week, are so much more caring than you’ll ever be. Seriously? Not even feeling compelled to TRY to save this when I’ve been trying so hard?! And you shift your focus on spending time with other people instead?!? You want to salvage other friendships that are not even remotely close to ending while this one is? How stupid of me to think we were friends. I was just conveniently there to be your ‘friend’ for..what? 6 months? 

And you know whats the stupidest thing? You.dont.give.a.damn. Im the only one thats hurt. Ha.  I hope you’re happy now. 

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me 
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend…